i first met him at a campsite with cadets. He held mein his arms when it went dark, kissed my forehead, cried when we had to leave. but not it aint cadets, real world.

i only see him with cadets, its so bloody confusing. one minute he is like 'love you' the next he blanks me. his mates have told me he wont shut up about me [in a good way] 

my heart is his forever, but i can't stop thinkign about other boys too. He lives a few miles away from me, why cant he bus it? i told  him i cant cus i have no money. he hardly texts me, when he does its summert lame like 'im on a bus.'help my confused ways? x