I got asked out just before Xmas and everything's good with me and Jack.
He's a lovely guy, funny ,sweet, cuddly. I haven't been out with a boy in a while, but had a few girlfriends. [I'm bi] and for that matter Jack's bi too. We got a lot in common :)
We both know what the other has been through, and helped eachother and that's how we got to where we are now. But I'm scared I'll relapse so badly and upset him. If I have one of my 'episodes' again and get all depressed again, I'll hurt him. If I tell him he'll be hurt, if I hide it he'll be worse. I'm trying to keep myself as happy as possible. i stopped cutting for him, I'm even eating now, I'm trying to control my sleep. EVERYTHING.
But idk if he knows how much I'm doing. Idk if he loves me as much as I love him. It's only early days but he means so much. ...Am i being stupid? :/
xox
