Loopy1 / Aug 13 2009 16.48

Hey Antz,

It must hurt so much to know that your parents spend more on your brothers, but there are other ways to release the feelings without taking it out on yourself. Like you said it makes you feel worse and it's good that you want some help to break the cycle.

Are there anybody you can speak to? Your GP, a teacher, a friend, anyone that you can trust. There are people who love you for who you are and are willing to spend time to care for and support you.

Keep working towards your goal, it's so lovely that you have one xx

JayXx / Aug 13 2009 20.36

Hey. Judging by your message, you seem like a bright, confident person with a huge future ahead of themselves. It sounds horrible that your parents spend more on your siblings than they do on you, and drama workshops are important when you want to become an actress. There are other ways you can deal with this, either by sitting down and talking to them, although I assume you've done this already. Maybe you could join a drama club at school, or a club in your local area.
Cutting is not going to help, though. You can't bottle your feelings up, you have to let them out. I know its hard to talk to people, but seriously, its the best thing to do. The reason it works is because a problem shared is a problem halved. Once someone else knows about your worries, then they can help you to come up with a solution. Cutting yourself isn't ever going to change anything, believe me. It just hurts a lot, and its a constant reminder which you don't need.
Keep your chin up, and shoulders back.
Most importantly, take care.
xoxoxox

emokitty93 / Sep 26 2009 10.17

im in the same sort of position...i too want help...but dont you think tht wanting help and not wanting to go thru it again means tht we are both strong ppl...?

IfOnlyTheyKnew / Sep 27 2009 14.27

try ur best to stop.

i no its hard with ur sucumstances but try 2 distract ur self from cutting. every time u fel urself going 4 a knife change ur mind and pik up a spoon or sumthin . u cnt hurt urself with dat.

i cut myself and wen im upset i do it rely bad. i had 2 to hospital a while bak coz i cut 2 deep and u guess wat happened...

its rely not fair the way ur parents give more to ur siblings but try to shut dat out. i no i sound like an adult saying this but u shud talk 2 dem about it and tell dem how much it hurts u.

 x 

DAWN / Oct 10 2009 16.38

hey everyone thanks for ur advice, u really helped and i am now only selfharming once a week or not at all it was hard but knowing other people were helping and cared helped.

Thanks so much for ur kind words of support.

DAWN