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    LifeFullOfSaddness / Oct 23 2009 22.02

     I Started cutting a year ago for a lot of diffrent  reasons. Talking to an adult i trusted was the worst thing i could have ever done because it lead to more problems and sadness! I want to stop for the people that i love because i know how much it hurts them but at the same time i dont want to because i get fascinated by the cuts, blood and scars cutting leaves. I could be sitting in a lesson and really want to do it, ive done it in lesson twice before but i got scared so i waited till i got to the toilet at break or lunch i spend most of my life thinking about it, someone else who is close to me does it and when i see his scars i get so jealous of how  they look they are dark and bold they are but mine are light lines that i can barely see, some of you might think thats good no one will really notice or see them but i like looking at scars but when i look and cant see anything it makes me want to do it more and more. I think im weird and so might many of you but i cant deal with this anymore any advice? x  

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    IfOnlyTheyKnew / Oct 11 2009 16.31

    i no how it can b.

    but u hav 2 remember that cuting affects alot more ppl den just u and it actualy makes ur FRIENDS who care about u very worried.

    take care an d please stop b4 its to late xx 

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    Jenny94 / Oct 22 2009 11.06

    i understand, you know when i self harm, i look at my arms and see that they don't look big enough and that makes me cut myself harder and more times. Its confusing because all the time i think why am i doing this?

    Sometimes talking to an adult doesn't work out, i know. The person i told when behind my back to tell various people

    i don't think your weird, however you have to understand that self harming is not the best way forward and you should try and look at this persons scars with less jealousy and concentrate on getting better, i say this but i know how hard it is.

    i have also cut myself in class and i know that when you feel that impulse you feel you have to do it.

    Obviously you ffel like you can't talk to adults, but i wonder have you tried wearing an elastic band or squeezing ice. alternativly have a bath or go for a run, for me, this sometimes helps.

    i really hope you manage to sort this out, its harder if you don't have any support. Do try and find someone to talk to, but i know you've tried and it didn't work out.

    i hope you've found this a bit helpful and good luck

    xxxxxxxxx

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    MapleTree / Oct 23 2009 22.02

    Whenever I got the feeling to cut in class, I just started doodling or threw myelf into the work we had been given. It took my mind off wanting to cut and it helped in the school work, maybe it would work for you?

    I don't think you are weird for wanting your scars bigger than somebody elses, I saw my friends and she had very bold ones so I started to copy her. Eventually I realised this wasnt the way forward and tried to cut down on the amount of cutting I did, I know it probably sounds a bit silly but it really helped me to stop.

    I really hope this helps

    Maple Tree xxxx

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