
I Started cutting a year ago for a lot of diffrent reasons. Talking to an adult i trusted was the worst thing i could have ever done because it lead to more problems and sadness! I want to stop for the people that i love because i know how much it hurts them but at the same time i dont want to because i get fascinated by the cuts, blood and scars cutting leaves. I could be sitting in a lesson and really want to do it, ive done it in lesson twice before but i got scared so i waited till i got to the toilet at break or lunch i spend most of my life thinking about it, someone else who is close to me does it and when i see his scars i get so jealous of how they look they are dark and bold they are but mine are light lines that i can barely see, some of you might think thats good no one will really notice or see them but i like looking at scars but when i look and cant see anything it makes me want to do it more and more. I think im weird and so might many of you but i cant deal with this anymore any advice? x