My name is Kathleen and I'm 13 years old.

Like you probably already got from the title I cut myself. It started three years ago. Its called Self Injurie (SIMD) I do want to stop but I can't. I use a knife. I know how you can kill yourself by cutting your wrists, each time I cut myself it keeps getting closer to my wrists. And I don't know what to do now. 

I've told two of my close friends but I've been lying to my teachers, friends, and family. I know there all worried about me because I always lock myself in my room for hours. I just don't know what to do about it. 

This may sound really weird but I like feeling pain because it covers up the other pain I'm feeling. I know that if you don't cut yourself you wont understand what's going through my head when I say that, (DON'T TRY IF YOU DON'T) but it's really saying my life is so bad, emotionaly changing, and hurtful I have no where else to turn to.

Drawign blood is like a cover to me. It hides all my pain.

By,
Kathleen