I cut. Its the only thing that seems to help make the pain go away. Ive tried many other solutions like talking to my friends about my problems and song writing to get all of my fears and worries out. They don't really seem to work for me.

Everbody has a reason behind their scars, so this is mine...

My mam recieved a letter one day and wouldnt let anyone see it, so me being nosy when she had left the house i read it. The letter contained the following: 'Dear *****, we are writing to inform you that your latest cervical cancer check up had some unusual results and theyre may be a chance that you could be diagnosed with this...'

i panicked. I had heard about my friends at school slitting, this was the first thing that came to my head. Everything turned out to be fine for my mother, but then things started happening with boys and my dad.

So my pain got harder and cuts got deeper, i dont slit as much today as i did. But i still do. I have many scars that just wont fade and i can tell you where and when i did each.

Certain songs helped me get through things actually, heres a few: Between the trees - the way she feels, To write love on her arms, mayday parade - misreble at best.

Thats all i have to write so if there is anyone out there who has advice or has went through the same thing please let me know x