Yeah, so Im trying as best as I can atm

Quite stressed at the moment though and I feel really anxious; panic attacks keep coming and I hate them *so* much. I don't know how to deal with stuff right now. Usually I would turn straight to self harm but because I dont have that right at this moment I dont know what to do. I feel really weak on my own; I have no idea how people cope for months on end without it... I have a feeling I wont even last til the end of the week. Sometimes the feelings I have while I'm not doing it and how hard it is without self harm make me want to give up stopping and keep self harming forever but idk, i know its bad.

There's this girl in my form who has been pickin on me and my mate lately. She keeps laughing at me and spreading things round about me... the latest thing she said was that she wouldnt want to come to any prom afterparty that I was at because I would be sittin in the corner cutting my arm. Srsly. I nearly cried when I found out what she said; talk about being insensitive. Anyways, my friend [who she was also picking on] has told my head of year who is gonna try and sort things out tomorrow. It's gonna be stressfull and we all know what happens when i get stressed and upset =/

Anywho I think im about 4 days SH free? Thats the longest I done in ages

Three cheers for Jen eh