I've had enough, i don't know what to do anymore. I constantly feel close to tears, i don't know why i'm bothering anymore! I try so hard to stop self harm and then after 3 days i can't anymore and i cut...I feel so tired and stressed all the time and i get anxious and panicky about the smallest things.

Today i was at the supermarket and i was scared to go and pay for my drink because it was 39p and i felt stupid!!!! Its ridikculous to get so stressed about that!!!!!!! I feel like i'm never gonna get better and i feel so messed up coz i hate self harm but i need it, i need the relief i get from it.

But its bad, its ruining my life, i can't do P.E and everone asks but i can't tell them. I always have to wear long sleeves and i can't stay at my friends house anyomore.

My teacher says she gonna make it all better for me but i don't believe her, i don't feel i can trust her. I'm so confused and i just want my old life back when everything was fine and i was happy...

sorry about that guys

Jenny xxxxxxx