Hey there,

Its been a while since I have used this site, I used to be on here all the time due to troubles with self harming, eating problems and just general low self worth, fortunately I found the most amazing best friend who suffered from significant health problems but despite that never complained and showed me the true way to love life. I stopped destructing myself and setteled down in life. Sadly a few months ago my friend died. The first month or so after this happened i didnt find awful, of course they were not easy but i had so many people who had never been there before including me in stuff. It is now that I am finding hard. After a while everyone stops talking about it, they go back to their normal lifes while i feel i am left still mourning her deeply. I dont feel that there is anyone i can talk to really becasue i get the impression they think i am just bringing up the past. Due to how ill she was sometimes, she came into school very rarely and many people deserted her as a friend because she was never really able to come out. this is why i feel alone because there is no one who knew her as i did. Ive come back here to give and recieve support :) I hope to give to the world the realisation that she gave to me.

Love Kes xxxxx