SomethingCrazy / Jan 21 2010 18.24

What is the point in even trying with all of this? All that happens is you get it thrown back in your face. You try to be happy and cover up everything that is wrong but apparently that just isn't good enough. Someone overheard my friends saying that I would get 'one hell of a surprise' at a sleepover next week. I mean ffs why do I keep trying when it just never gets any better?

I have an addiction, a problem with self-harm and I cannot seem to stop it. I just don't know what to do with everything. I probably won't get help on here right away but I am beginning more and more not to care what happens. I mean come on, why bother getting better? It isn't worth it!