Hey guys... Ive been self harming for four years. the amount of times i have tried to give up is unreal, the amount of arguments i have had with loved ones over it is unbelievable. Recently ive been having terrible trouble with my weight and i despise myself so much that i am going back to self harm... i dont know what else to do really. i have no willpower to diet or to stop cutting. my friends say im skinny but ive put on half a stone recently. i used to be skinny i guess but not skinny enough... im 10 stone now, thats not right to me and i have a huge stomach, its disgusting. i just want to cut it all out, cut the nastiness. Wow four years on and its blatant im not getting any better.
People, willpower is important for giving up cutting and for losing weight i guess... i think im gonna be a self harmer for a very long time, i hope no one else will ever be like me... im here to talk to anyone, im not really looking for help. the most im gonna do on these message boards is help other people and just rant about stuff.
BrokenBeatAndScarred x
