Naejnerual / Jan 26 2010 19.55

I've stopped self harming after doing it for about a year cause i was making a complete mess and hated doing it.
I'm still trying to work through so many things and i'm really missing it. I depend on it in order to get me through the day and when i stopped doing it, i became openly angry, negative and sad ALL the time. When i self harmed i was able to wear a mask and hide how i was feeling to everyone else which is what i want. but sinse stopping people are starting to notice there's something wrong cause of the way i've changed.
I'm so close to starting again, but i so don't want to. But the more i don't do it, the worse thoughts i'm having and the more frustrated and unhappy i am :( Any advice? x