Please help me stop ):

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    glamorousrock / Jan 26 2010 20.08

    Hi. I was wondering if anyone had successfull recovered from self harming? I know it's a battle to stop, because it becomes such a strong coping mechanism, but i can't take this anymore.

    My self harm is at a really bad point. I do it almost everyday now, and even in a day i sometimes cut more than at one time. I've tried losts of ways to try and stop myself, keeping busy, crushing ice, using elastic bands, writing down how i feel, going running. But it's still not enough. I still have it in my head that i deserve to hurt myself, and until i do, i can't think straight.

    I really am finding it hard to cope, and i'm terrified that if i can't stop myself from this awful habit, one day i'm going to end up in hospital. (Luckily i've avoided it so far) My parents don't know about it, only my Dr does, but not alot is really being done because i have so many other problems to deal with right now.

    Is there any hope? Take care all, thanks for reading. x

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    Naejnerual / Jan 26 2010 20.08

    Hey

    This might sound slightly stupid and unhelpful :P But i was selfharming for about a year and a half, and for about a month now i haven't done it. Honestly, i'm really struggling and i'm really close to starting again but that's mainly due to extra things that have happened.
    I just thought i'd mention the reason i stopped. I had my prom in July and omg my dress was amazing, i felt like a princess in it. Loads of pics were taken and put all over facebook and that. And as i looked at the pics and saw the dress and my hair and my face, no matter how good they all looked that day, the scars on my arm completely erased them. All i could see was the mess i had made and tbh that's all i thought everyone else could see. It's easier in the winter when you don't have to show yourself but in the summer, and when you're out and even when you start a relationship with someone. You have to put yourself in situations where you're explaining something that most people don't get and where you can see the scars that will become clearer and deeper the longer we continue self harming.
    I can't tell you to stop or that this would help you but i just thought i'd mention it. Ask yourself whether the desire to hurt yourself is greater than the desire to not have to look down at yourself in 20 odd years time and say i made those xx
     

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