I dunno' if I will ever be able to make that transition... I mean theres a girl there in the same year as me now, and at GCSE she got the same grades as my genius friend Neethu (9 A*'s). I cannot compeat with that... I mean... I will be an outcast, I'll have the lowest grades in the year at GCSE.... And I would have to give up my friends, teachers I trust, school I know. How can anyone ask themselves that question?


Do you want to go to a grammer school to get the subjects you need now?


If you had've asked me that during the summer I would've said yes, most definatly... but now I am so scared... I mean... what if I fail? What if I don't make friends? (As I don't easily when I dunno' them and I am not in a comfortable place. And it took me untill half way through third year to find my true friends... and untill half way through fifth year to gain all the amazing guys I cannot live without!) What if I struggle to cope with "No 60-70% isn't good enough"? What if I go there and I cannot learn to trust my teachers? (Afterall it took me three years before I trusted my own form tutor.)What if? What if? What...if?

And every time I think of not coming back to my own... I well up in hysterical tears... =/
 

This is all for me to take A-level Mathematics and Physics together because my own school doesn't do physics, and I have been advised to take both together as they go hand in hand. So... should I move or not?

Advice?

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