
Okaay I dont really know how to say what my problem so sorry if it doesnt make sense :/
At my school I get along with people but I've never had a best friend, when I think I have one they either suddenly go off of me, or I get this thing where I be around one person for too long I go off of them so I have to keep moving around friends which personally I dont think this is normal :S, is anything wrong with me or is it just me? And because of this problem I dont get invited anywhere and I'm left out all the time which I hate, my mum says that my friends arent nice to me and that I should make new friends, but I havent made new friends in years and i dont think i cant do it anymore. My mum worries about me too much and i think its because of the whole i dont get invited anywhere thing because when my older sister was my age she was out most the time and I'm mostly at home. I sometimes think I should to talk to my mum about it but I cant it will be too scary and hard. What should i do?
Also there is soo much pressure and sometime I just want to run out of school. My older sister got like all A's in her GCSE's and I'm scared that I will dissapoint my family because I'm soo not clever. And also my little sister has just started my secondary school and she didnt fit in at first which made me nervous and my mum, and she started to get upset - basicly it didnt turn out good, but shes fine now. I kind of feel like I have to look after her and I dont think I can because I have a ton of problems myself and I dont know how to say to my mum, something like "wait im sorry but I cant keep my eye on her all the time, I wont do it well" or something like that :S
Am I just werid or is it normal
I cant deal with it anymore, it worries me so much :/