
up untilyy year 8 i was a great student, i behaved and then it all changed, i started answerin back, makin people laugh, getting angry really easy, and flipping out alot, any who challened me would get a mouthfull of a smack,
the thing is i never used to be like this , i hate going to school and am often late or dont turn up, i pretend to be ill or am normally ill because i cant cope with the stress at school. i try to turn things around and i end up going back to my old ways, or getting blamed for stuff i dont do, they dont give me a fair chance tbh. i have self harmed. it helped me realease the pain, i felt like i neeeded to do it because i was putting my family threwww alot of stress to, i pushed my mum into depresssion kind of because, i am always in trouble at school and suspended and nearly have been thrown ut of school.
i cant stop being like this angry person i am.. but also the teachers don give me a fair chance anywaaays.
i dont get on with my dad at all we often argue and things end up getting into a fight., i hate it. i hate him for making me feel so angry , but i love him and cudnt bare to loose him although i never show it, as he never shows me any affection because to him im a faliure he often calls me horrible names and makes me feeel so small its horibble. ive kinda go used to it, but it still hurts.
im always ill aswell, the stress of school also gives me heart puplitations. not many teachers are on my side anymore, i blow it with alot of people cause im an idiot. i hate myself,
i just neeed some help comment please.