Anyone else hate them?

I got triggered when one came off in my arm as a 3yr old, but unfortunately I have a really strong memory! 

I had to have a blood test done 4 times, but my veins kept collapsing! So I had to go back 2 days later and get it repeated. ...

Got the results and I need SEVERAL more.

I admit I'm 14 and still get 'magic cream' or 'magic spray' to numb it  and I find it easier if I watch the thing, make sure it doesn't get stuck... but most look away. I hate the whole process.

But after having all them jabs I felt a weird "addiction" to it? Like I kept feeling compelled to poke it coz it felt odd?!?!  Just next time I think I'll freak out again. I was offered play therapy but I heard it's full of 7 year olds and stuff being told "This is Nancy Needle the puppet and she's going to explain why it's completely fine!"  Sorry if that's not true , but seriously.

I couldn't even have the HPV jab coz I'm so scared. I think it might be trust problems, omg help me!!! x