I have this voice..

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    Jenny123 / Oct 31 2009 18.29

    Hey guys. I'm 13 years old. & alots kinda.. going on for me right now. Like last year my parents split up. My mum's got delusional depression were she's so depresssed she gets ill. But she doesn't belive that it's casued by depression so she wont get better until she belives it's becuase of depression. and she's tried to kill herself so many times, self harmed so many times i've lost count =S I also have a really controlling best freind. were kind of everything revolves around her and just her. she's one step better than me at everything, prettier, smarter, everything. and i kind of have to put on this happy act to her all day and put up with her being mean if she's in a bad mood.

    But my point is, i've got this kind of.. voice, in my head. It's my voice. It sounds like me. but i'm not making the voice say theese things. It will say relaly nasty things. Like when i'm done doing my hair, it will say something like ''Ha! Really? Your REALLY done? Your still UGLY'' Or when i look in the mirror it will tell me things like ''Who would love you? Urgh. Feel sorry for me. I've got to live in YOUR body.'' Or sometimes it will just be at random times, things like ''It's your fault yaknow, the things your mum's doing. If you would have been a better behaved daughter none of this would have happened'' Or ''You deserve to die''  ''Why can't you do something right?'' & most commonly when i'm eating it will tell me I need to stop eating and loose some weight and tell me i'm fat. It really really bothers me and i can't tell anyone becuase i'm scared they'll think im mental or something :( What do oyu think it is & how can i get rid of it? (I've been to ocuncilling.. no help.. i really couldn't tell them)

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    Cinna / Oct 25 2009 10.36

    For the majority of things, I know how you feel. My parents were on the verge of a divorce,but the my dad got a job far away so he now lives 2 hours away from me, my mum and sister. They're still "together" - but they argue whenever he comes home at weekends and if he'd have stayed at home they would  have got divorced anyway.

    My mum has pretty much the same problem. She's on drugs for depression but it doesn't do much most of the time so she takes it out on me instead :/

    I think with the friend situation you need to try and branch out and start trying to become friends with other people, I know it's hard but she doesn;t have any right to act like towards you. You are equally as important as her!

    Does you Dad know about the problems with your mum? If not, I think it would be best to tell him. Then you would feel like there is less of a burden on you.

    About the voice thing, I think you need to try and see a councilleor again, or a psychiatrist. You may feel embaressed or like you can't tell them whats going on, but you'll feel much better when you have.

    I don't think people would call you mental - you've had a lot to deal with lately and thats most likely whats caused it.

    I hope everything gets sorted, good luck!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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    brokengirl-21 / Oct 31 2009 18.29

    I know exactly how you feel. a lot has happend to me to except the self harm is the other way round and i hear things but i see them to. theres tow girls roxy and amy and they are people i see. then theres james and the twins. the twins are evil.... basically try this if you see them or hear them i tell them to go away or imagine there, there and i tell them to leave my room because its my room or just plug in some music i know that its hard but if you believ in your self things will get so much better xx

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