
Hey guys. I'm 13 years old. & alots kinda.. going on for me right now. Like last year my parents split up. My mum's got delusional depression were she's so depresssed she gets ill. But she doesn't belive that it's casued by depression so she wont get better until she belives it's becuase of depression. and she's tried to kill herself so many times, self harmed so many times i've lost count =S I also have a really controlling best freind. were kind of everything revolves around her and just her. she's one step better than me at everything, prettier, smarter, everything. and i kind of have to put on this happy act to her all day and put up with her being mean if she's in a bad mood.
But my point is, i've got this kind of.. voice, in my head. It's my voice. It sounds like me. but i'm not making the voice say theese things. It will say relaly nasty things. Like when i'm done doing my hair, it will say something like ''Ha! Really? Your REALLY done? Your still UGLY'' Or when i look in the mirror it will tell me things like ''Who would love you? Urgh. Feel sorry for me. I've got to live in YOUR body.'' Or sometimes it will just be at random times, things like ''It's your fault yaknow, the things your mum's doing. If you would have been a better behaved daughter none of this would have happened'' Or ''You deserve to die'' ''Why can't you do something right?'' & most commonly when i'm eating it will tell me I need to stop eating and loose some weight and tell me i'm fat. It really really bothers me and i can't tell anyone becuase i'm scared they'll think im mental or something :( What do oyu think it is & how can i get rid of it? (I've been to ocuncilling.. no help.. i really couldn't tell them)