
okay so i've had a lot of stuff go on whatever and my mentor in scool reckon it would be best for my to go to my gp and sort things out that way to get counselling and whatever else. but the thing is i'm just really scared of going and am not quite sure what to expect. might osund daft i know, but it's just that i've been messed around for so long by teachers and mentors and cwos and police and social workers, and i've never actually moved forward in anyway until now. this is the closest i've got to getting better and i'm a bit frightened. also my mum's probably gonna come with me to the gp but i'm not really sure how i feel about that. i hate my mum being involved with any of this stuff because i know it hurts her and she gets upset and it makes her ill when shes stressed. and i mean really ill. so i sort of want to protect her from it all. also a i don't feel comfortable talking to her about things. i just can't talk to her, you know. i'm 17 so i am old enough to go by myself if i wanted, but i don't think i could manage on my own either. i don't really want my mum there but there's no one else really suitable to go with me. i just am scared about going really. it's major step forward for me. i guess i'm just looking for some reassurance and if anyone else could tell what happened with them if they went to the gp to get counselling and how it works and everything.