I recently got diagnosed with this (by recent i mean i was only aware/told 4 days ago) and im in denial.. i keep thinking i cant have this.. it proves everything that happened was real and just confirms me as a victim. Its making me lower by the fact i now have this label.. Its another ontop of the pile and im fed up with my mums comments, like 'just get over it and stop being a victim!' but its not that easy...my life was on the line so much and i suffered sexual violence daily for nearly a year.. i only started remembering 3 months ago as i suppressed it all so i could pretend to be normal and not see how evil i really am.. I wish i had never told anyone about my abuse it was a huge mistake.. i know everyone feels this way until the bennefits of knowing the truth come a long but 3 months since telling my psychologist and 1 since my mum found out... its a huge mess... i regret it all.. i've ruined everything and made it all a whole lot worse. My mum hates me and all she does is shout at me and my dad is pestering me as to know why i have this label.. its wearing me down. I want to just forget it all, the stuff i did, saw and experienced.. i dont know who i am anymore! I dont know why im writing this.. just want some support i suppose? Also if anyone else has been diagnosed with this? Hope everyones alright, take care xxx
