I live with my dad and my sister (17) my brother (10) my sister (8), I'm 16 years old.  My mum was an alchoholic and i dont talk to her anymore. My dad has a girlfriend who spends all her time with dad and is very controlive. My dad and my 17 year old sister Alice are very dominant over me. Alice's opinion is alwways valid more than mine because she is older. She drives and has the freedom to go whereever she wants, i dont. I have a boyfriend in Hertfordshire and my family hate him but i adore him, i feel he is all i have left. I dont get on with Alice as she constantly acts like she is better than me, im bored of being the scape goat of the family. I try so hard at school and at my weekend job where i am a waitress and Alice is head waitress, yet another place where Alice dominates me. We go to the same school and we are in the same year because she got put down a year - we are both in year 12. Alice has a boyfriend at the school and as she can drive she dominates at school too, taking her boyfriend out at lunch and friends. I feel like everyone leaves me out, like the only one who wants me is my boyfriend Adam. He's 18 and i spent the week at his house and ive never had so much fun. He has a normal family, he has such a good life. I want to move out and be individual but i have no money. I dont know what to do, i cant carry on pretending im happy. I lost my gran in may who replaced my mum - she died of cancer. I've felt a gaping hole ever since then. I just feel i am fighting for nothing and being here is a waste of time. I tried to commit suicide once when my mum told me dad was having an affair and im scared ill get so low that i will do it again. I cried all day today, i havent felt this low since gran died.. I just feel lost. I dont know wether to drop my family and move up to Adam's or go on my own and find a place anywhere. I cant carry on like this.