I do not know why, but I feel so lonely sometimes, you know? I have a small group of friends, but they always tell its all my fault when something wrong happened. And my "best" friend always say I'm too loud. Its not my fault that my voice is high. I can't stop it.
An example of when my friends say its my fault is yestarday. Mihaela, my "best" friend, and I were in English doing work on a poem called Vulture when a girl called Samia came and took her shoe off as a dare. She eventually gave it back, saying she is sorry it was a dare. But Mihaela started to cry, and the teacher told us to go outside so she can calm down giving ME a look. Like, what-did-you-do. So we went. She calmed down and went inside. At lunch, which was after English, we went downstairs and she started to cry AGAIN. Okay, I ain't the best at people's feelings, so I did not know what to do. She has a temper that you do not want to mess with. So, walking down the stairs, I let her calm down. Which she didn't. We sat at a table, and I tried to talk her to calm down, crying will make it worse. She didn't stop. And the other girls, Larrisa, Sarah and Ilena came. Larrisa said it was MY fault, why didn't I hit Samia or call her names. I just started at them (Sarah and Larrisa) shaking their heads. We are Romanians, so Ilena didn't understand what we were saying. Well, she didn't say much, just stood there watching Mihaela.
The other example is today. At Maths, by accident when I put my hand up to answer a question, I touched Mihaela on her face. BY ACCIDENT. She made a scene about it, saying how I could have killed her and how much it hurts. And I told her it was an accident, and how I don't get angry when you make mistakes like this, and she should stop with her temper. She ignored me, rolling her eyes at the teacher. Obviously we were speaking in Romania, so the teacher asked me what happened. I told him exactly what happened, and he grinned, shaking his head muttering "drama queen" to Mihaela. Mihaela told me off for telling the teacher.
Does anybody feel so lonely, that they just wish they were left alone and is wishing every night for peace and a good day?
