hello

I relli appreciate u for taking your time to read this....

Basically i have fallen back into depression, and no one in my family is talking to me. I have tried apologising to my mother, but she doesnt care no more. I also found out that my uncle is at the stage of dying. Everyone is crying and im in my room alone, tired and depressed. I have no one to cry on, and im really sad because im a loner and have been in my house for more than a week. It feels like im not wanted, it feel like im not recognised in my house. I sometimes sit on the stairs and listen to my family laughing and enjoying themselves in the living room, and i feel left out.  I know that i am not anted and fel as if i am a mistake in this world.I feel as if i have caused pain to this family, and I have been writing in my diary non stop. I cant live no more, and dont hae the energy to concentrate on my life. Most of the days i lock my self in the room and am left with my emotions.I feel very sad, and scared. I feel apart from my family, and i always look fowards to my sleep. i know this is crazy, but everything feels so different. I hate opening up, and telling others my feelings and stuff about my life, but i feel so low and neglected. When i go to sleep, i feel safer in my dreams and hate waking up, cz i know im lonely then, and have nothing to do. I rarely see my friends and well im a low confident girl. please help me and thankyou for reading