My best friend has a new boyfriend and its the first person she has slept with so he is very important to her and i do want her to be happy with him but recently she has started, not ignoring me but she won't speak to me unless i speak to her first! There is not chance that either of them will break it off any time soon cause he is far too nice and she has 'never been happier' 

 She is the only person that knows about my self-harm and even on days when i am clearly depressed and just need someone to talk to she will walk with him to lunch, at break all the way home and not even look at me! It's getting hard not to hate her for this because i need her more than she knows, i am too self-conscious to just go up and ask her to talk to me cause i am depressed! I just don't know what i am going to do, has anyone been through something similar and can help?