My friend knows about my eating disorder, and I love her to pieces because she's always been there for me ect... but she's so skinny, to the point where all the teachers at school have had her out of lesson at some point accusing her of having an eating disorder... which really upsets her because she doesn't (she's just one of those people that can eat EVERYTHING and not put anything on) so i want to be there for her because shes so unhappy...
but now all she does is moan bout how skinny she is, and that's all she'll ever talk about, and it really upsets me, i'd love to beable to be a size 6 like that. I know it's wrong of me ect but i can't help but hate her everytime she opens her mouth :(
she says it's no fun being skinny and that nobody likes you, yet all through school she's always been the first out of our friendship group to be asked or included in things with the popular people, everytime we go out theres guys after her and anyone will talk to her. now why is that no fun?? and people obveously like her!! i just don't get it.
She's always complaining that she wants to be popular and says that she's never happy... but when we go out she's laughing, and happy and has fun... it's like we're not good enough for her :(
Everytime I look at her i hate myself, i would give anything to be that skinny, and to have people approach me and talk to me like that, to be included and not pushed away :(
But i've tried everything. and i lose 6-7lbs and then get really depressed and start eating loads and throwing up again... and that just makes me feel worse.
It's all just a mess :( I don't know what to do
