Confused1996 / Dec 04 2009 12.03

i'm the same, i have like nil self confidence and i want to be thin and pretty but... im not. my friends say im thin and i've started cutting back on food. i have to eat dinner cos otherwise my parents shout at me and tell me im never hungry etc. it hurts cos they dont understand. i want to tell them but... 1) i dont know what to tell them 2) im not close with my parents and they wouldn't understand. =(

wish you all my luck hun, xxx ily from confused xxx

confuzzled59 / Dec 05 2009 19.10

thanks, its good to know sumone out there feels the same way as me. my parents would get so mad if they found out that i wasn't eating and so would my friends. i feel so bad for letting them down but they just don't understand!! xxxx

Nik1410 / Dec 13 2009 17.55

hiya, i understand exactly how you both feel atm ihave been goin through a tough time too in school and at home, so not eating makes me feel better abt myself but my mum and nan recently began to pick up on what i have been doin so they tell me off alot and tell me to eat, i dont talk abt it much coz people at home ont understand and neither do my friends at school "/ goodluck to both of you x

PS sorry it's late x

Ellii / Dec 15 2009 18.16

Firstly, I love it that Im not the only person who says confuzzled I get called a freak because I say it instead of confused which I dont really understand tbh.

secondly, Im exactly the same. I look in the mirror and tell myself how fat I am. I hate eating. If I eat something I feel terrible and hate myself more. I stopped eating completly for a while but it upset my parents and after a week they forced me to eat and I hated that. Ive stopped again but im keeping it secret now but its harder because the school has got involved. i tell my teachers i eat alot of breakfast so i dont eat school dinners and i have tea when i come home. I have a milkshake in the morning and tell my mum i ate loads at school and that im not hungry so i dont want anything for tea, but of course shes suspicious so i take my food upstairs and flush it down the toilet or take it down and put it in the bin when my parents are in the living room or feed it to the dog when they arnt looking.

I try not to eat because when I do I feel more hungry then i eat to much if i eat nothing it becomes normal to me and i dont crave food. I dont like telling people because i know they will try to help and i dont want that because i feel better when i eat less than the day before and feel bad when i eat more. I just want to be tall and thin too. im glad someone feels the same way because I feel happy that im getting thinner and thinner but sad because i feel weak all the time.

confuzzled59 / Dec 16 2009 18.37

I feel exactly the same but I'm off school now so its really hard. I only have a yoghurt for breakfast and then spend most of the morning on the wii fit  so then that makes me feel a little bit better about it. I have to eat though coz I hav antibiotica and htye have to be taken with food annoyingly. Then I try and have the smallest lunch possible, don't snack and eat a small dinner. I have to eat to stay strong and get better but its very satisfying watching the weight slip off slowly. My jeans used to be really tight but now they are loose and things like that make me feel so good.

I know its bad but it makes me happy so I don't care. I have to have something to make my life a bit less bad. It sucks but it would suck less if i was thin and pretty :)

good luck!!

love emz xxx

Ellii / Dec 19 2009 9.52

I spend and hour in the morning before school on wii family trainer even if my family wont do it with me lol.

Like I said Id be loads happier if I was tall thin and pretty, then maybe people would stop bullying me but I doubt it because they always find something to pick on, like me being a freak i dont think that will ever stop.  :(

anyway well done for eating at least a little bit a day. Ellii x

confuzzled59 / Dec 21 2009 21.11

hey

I Love the wii :)

Yeh I always thought i'd fit in better if i was thinner and prettier but now i've found a nicer group of friends and i'm much happier. but still i think i would be happier if i was thinner.

I'm trying to eat preoperly but its hard :/ i hate it aswell but oh well.

how come you get bullied? no one shoudl have to go through that :( i'm sorry it had to happen to you. what do they pick on u for? i used to get picked on for ginger hair but i never let it get to me and so now its just the odd joke which i can deal with.

keep going :)

love emz xxxx