MCRmy / Jan 13 2010 15.56

i'm fifteen and 5'2" and are the same weight as you. You are probably underwight for your height (because i am). My story sounds a lot like yours. I think you may have a problem, it certainly sounds like it, you obviously have some thoughts that you to do ask?. If you can try and reach out to someone you trust or and adult and get help. It doesn't have to be medical. But it might be for the best.

I'm here if you wnat to talk. MCRmy<3

Lexiedrops / Jan 13 2010 16.29

Thanks MCRmy. I think I'm just about the right weight for my height. I waver between whether I am or not because i eat, but afterwards I feel like a complete failure and everything.

I'm so scared of telling an adult, I can't think of anyone I would feel comfortable telling. I don't want to tell my mum and I've only been to the doctor's once for a vaccination so I'm not comfortable going there.

I really appreciate it. I feel lonely at the minute as I don't really have any close friends to talk to. Lex x

Hannahbear / Jan 14 2010 13.07

Hello im 14, 15 in april and im 6st 10 5ft3:)X I have put my thread up a few days ago if you want to check it out:P

My parents arent divorced, because they were never married, but they have split up they always have been, since before i was born really. I get alot of stress and theres alot of crisis going on at the moment I put a thread about Home and family as i think thats my main concern.

Maybe you could have an eating problem:/ I know it dosen't sound nice but we all go throgh stuff, and its experience that make us stronger!

If you ever want to talk about how you feel and why you feel like this then Im here:) Hope this is useful take care <3!x

Lexiedrops / Jan 14 2010 16.07

It is no one's fault but my own. I've always had this need to try and be better than people (but im not over-competitive) because I feel like I need to be perfect. All my targets at school are A*'sso I feel like I need to be perfect. So, when I hear people who weigh less than me... I get paranoid.

I got down to 6 stone 13 last night but it's gone up again and I felt like crying when I weighed myself again. I weigh myself alone. I want to lose more weight but I struggled walking home today because my body was hungry so I gave in, I had two bananas and a yoghurt, then I made myself sick. Then I had a cookie and a nutrigrain and I feel REALLY sick and depressed.

To be underweight, I would need to be less then 6 stone

Lex. x

MCRmy / Jan 15 2010 19.35

I really thing you should talk to someone, or make yourself a food plan and have someone check it. Just to make sure you ar egetting the right vitamins and enough food for your body to function.

Take care. MCRmy<3

Lexiedrops / Jan 15 2010 20.00

I'm starting to keep a diary of my feelings and in it I'm putting what I've eaten and when I've thrown up and things like that. I got down to 6 stone 11 lb but it's gone to 6 st 13 lb again. Each time I weigh myself I'm always trying to be lighter or the same and whenever it's more I become downhearted. I spoke to childline through 1-2-1, who suggested the diary and both them and a friend I've just told suggested seeing my GP just in case. I tried to be sick after dinner but it didn't work, I almost choked.

Thanks for your concern...

Lex x

MCRmy / Jan 16 2010 17.28

I understand how your feeling. totally I do. i feel like that most of the time.

I think the diary is a good thing, especially if you go for help in future.

One thing I once heard which I think I should share with you "weight is just a number, its no reflection on who you are as a person, its just a dumb number" i hope this helps. starving yourself isnt going to fix what made you feel this way...

the GP could perscribe medicines and help you talk through possibilities, remember is confidential.

MCRmy<3

Lexiedrops / Jan 16 2010 22.00

My trouble is hiding from my mum where've gone if I'm back late after school from being at my GP. I may go...

I ate today and we unable to purge because my boyfriend was round, which made me down and then I had to tell him... well I showed him the diary. He knew I did it but I don't think he realised how much and he looked upset about it. He said he'd come with me if I ever did go to my GP.

Because I've eaten, I've put on weight and im trying to lose it. I was 6 stone 11 lbs this morning and I got to 7 st 4 lbs (which made me cry) and now I'm on 6 st 13lbs, jogging and bouncing up and down in my room. I've even brought the scales into my room since I keep checking.

I'm worried I'll go to the GP and they tell me there's nothing wrong with me and I just need to get over it...

Lexiedrops / Jan 17 2010 14.28

My problem is hiding the visits, I know it'll be confidential but I'll have to think up lies if my mum asks me where I've been. I think she's starting to notice. She notices some leftovers in the toilet and asked me about it and she was nice about it an worried but I still lied to her. It made me feel so awful but I couldn't bring myself to tell her.

Yesterday, my scales were moved into my room for a while and I keep checking and they keep changing. I know it doesn't define me but I'm just worried about getting fat and the dangers of that...

I'm worried about going to my GP and being told that there is nothing to worry about.

Lex x

MCRmy / Jan 17 2010 18.11

I see. Im sure if your mum is noticing she might ask soon, maybe its best to go voluntarily before youre forced?

Please try and not be sick, its so bad for you =/ I know it might be hard to talk about it, but its for the best. I dont think your GP would say there is nothing wrong, they are really good with such issues... there are tests they cna get you to do... (for example a questionaire)

I'm here if you need to talk, anytime.

MCRmy<3