atm i feel really fed up...

the other day i felt really hurt and let down- i knew some1 had been talking behind my back, fair enough had what they been saying was true, but it wasnt, so i kept getting mouthfuls from various people because they believe her over me, and they've known me way longer than her.

this feeling is replayed when i get home- my dad and i really dont get on (ive posted on the home and family relationships bout tht one), so there are always arguments resulting in me feeling rather low and feeling as though things need to change. Also im at the age where uni is the most important thing this year, im currently taking my A2s, so applying for unis is major this year- yet i feel as though no one in my family has any faith in me, my teachers seen to have more faith. My dad doesnt think im capable of it, my mum just wants me to get a job and my nan cant imagine me actually going..

this weekend ive had arguments at home- "u'r stupid", "u cant argue about doing stuff, seeing as you dont do anything", "u should try getting out the right side of bed 2moz, uve had attitude all day", also ive had people from skool, and ex-pupils talking about me on facebook, calling me names and saying that my latest status was rather worth a reading..but i cant do anything about one of the people calling me names as hes no longer at the skool, and from the comments made by the people at skool, thy aint really serious enough to make a complaint about at skool.

i just feel as though im a disappointment to my family and also to people at school...and hurt and let down

i just feel sooo low atm, i really can't bear anything else in my life atm going wrong, cause i dont think i'd b able to cope....