Ever since year 4 in primary i have had to deal with pain and being upset everyday. I was bullied throughout primary and most of high school. I really got depressed 2weeks into year 7 as my mum left home...I was really close to my mum as she use to protect me from my dad who hits me and always yells at me. As he did actually use to abuse my mum before i was born. I missed my mum so much and thats where it went down hill really. In year i had soical services around because i told about my dad hitting me but i couldnt see my own dad get in trouble because i love him, i love all my family. I know if my mum stil lived here my life would be completely different though, an i know i could of done something about it. I am always having bad arguments with my dad, and yes i do get pretty upset and really angry towards him sometimes but he goes to far, he is always overexagerting the truth and lying, he is always sarcy and takes the mik out of me. He hits me sometimes as well as stopping the car far from home telling me to get out when weve had an arguement in the car. I also got diagonosed with diabetes last year may 2008 and im finding it really hard to cope. I also had a phase throughout yr 11 where i thought i was gay and when i came out to my family they took it as a shock. Now my brother doesnt really talk to me much and my dad takes the mik all the time :(
To top this off recently my sister broke up with her boyfriend as he was hitting her for 4years in the relationship. This as resulted in my sister possessions spread around my house and its cluttered everywhere up and you cant move. It brings me down so much. My mum never wants to talk or see me :( im faalling behind on sixth form work.
I have basically had enough, i think about dying everyday :-( i really want to die but not with pain.
:(
