unhappy1993 / Jan 04 2010 11.37

Hello I defoo know how you feel im going through the same thing as you with voices , images , depression , etc  you have done really well posting your message well done .

I know its very hard to tell your CAMHS worker how you feel but you really need to tell her everything so she can help and support you it took me a year to tell my CAMHS worker everything but about 3 weeks ago i manged to tell them prety much everything know im receving hellp and on meducation prozac.  Its so inmportant you tell people how you feel and whats going throuugh your head so they can acess you help and support babe . If you tell your CAMHS worker it will really really make a difference trust me   on this . Your CAMHS worker will not think your been stupid or silly at all they are there to help and they are trained in this area with mental health they do want to help you but you need to open up to them and tell them the truth .

As for people been horrible if this is happing in school i would suggest you talk to your headyear you could also explain whats going on insdide your head if you wanted too  or another option would be tell your parents if not then you could try and write it down for them to read .

Its nice to know that people do care about you and they are concerned about your menal health !

YOUR NOT ALONE. ,

Here if u want to talk some more about this . Talk soon lovesandhuggsforyou

xxxx

bethyb / Jan 05 2010 16.06

thanks that advice really helped :)

ive talked to my head of year aboutthe bullying and selfharm so im being looked after by her at school so its better at school than it was

i'm really not one for talking im so shy that i can hardly talk to anyone about anything, my parents already know but dont bother me with it cus i get even worse cus i hate not being able to voice my thoughts :/

i no that i really need to talk to my CAMHS worker its just that i can hardly talk to her about anything anyway that i know there is no wayi could talk to her about it, i've tried writting it down but then the voices tell me not to give it to her and it doesnt make a lot of sense anyway so i dont know but next week im determined to give it to her and so then i can get the help i need. but i dont know

i really need help though with all of this because im losing control of my body and it scares the hell outta me but i really cant

i spose i dont want to talk to believe that im depressed because it then makes my mental illness officia if that makes any sense i try to hide it from anyone even myself that im mentally ill just cus i hate to think that i'm that way. i really find it so hard to figure out what it is thats made me the mess i am. i selfharm at least once a day and am often close to trying to kill myself and it really worries me that one day i may not be able to stop myself from suicide god my heads sucha mess

im sorry for the rant but thanks again for the excellent help it really did make me feel better knowing that theres someone i can talk to who understands so thank you soo much :)

loves xxx

unhappy1993 / Jan 05 2010 18.54

Hello  , Well Done you have been very brave in telling your headyear a bit about what has been going on for you at the moment .

As for talking to your CAMHS worker it would be a very good idea to write it down and give it to her i know you say the voices tell you not to give the peice of paper but try to egnore them i know its very very hard as i do understand but  once you have given it to her the next hardest step will be over and you will feel better again , What about if you where to take a freind in there with you or could your head year arrange a meeting with your CAMHS worker and you and your headyear . Maybe your headyear could speak for you but you would have to be in the room so you know whats going on dont be scared though i promise you its going to be okay .

Yeah you are right you do need help and its good your asking for help and support to help you through this terrible time !  , Your been so brave about it you should be really proud of your self well done .

I can understand it can be a hard thing to take in as having a mental illness it is very very hard i find it so difficult. Even adults trying to helping me are finding it so hard .

You are welcome , I am happy to hear that its made you feel bit better  and im always here for you if you want to talk . Im on here practially everyday 247 lol .

Talk to you soon , LovesAndHuggs

Stay Strong! 

xxxx

bethyb / Jan 06 2010 21.07

but if i go againdt the voices then i feel awful, i feel worse than i ever have before. thats what happened when i told my hedyear about selfharming, the only reason i managed to tell her was cus i broke down i was crying so much and it took so much persuasion on her half to get me to tell her anything and i felt so bad afterwards i burst into tears again and tbh i hate crying infront of anyone and i dont want that to happen again and i'm just so confused :/

i have such a horrid feeling that if i give her the piece of paper with it al written on then it'll make everything worse, i was so close to attempting suicide last nightbut instead selfharmed worse than ever and i know that if it gets anyworse then i dont know what i'll do. Even if i did manage to give her the paper then i wouldntbeable to talk about it, cus whenever she asks about the selfharm then i just freeze and cant speak and when i do i dont tell the whole trueth, last week she asked me if i had selfharmed i said i had but only once or twice (what i missed out was that that once or twice was every day) she thought nothing of it and i just felt so bad cus i know i need to tell her everything to get better help for me but i physically cant.

i really dont understand anything and im so scared and worried and confused and upset etcetc.

anyway thanks :)

xxx

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