well i was abit unsure about writing to this because usally i just read peoples dissusions not right them not very confident what people will say, or comment.. but atm i just dont no what to do anymore!

its like im stuck in a big dark empty tunnel, with no light at the end.

basically things go right, and then something goes wrong and everything just goes crazy, i cant put it down to a certain thing it a whole bunch off things gettting me down, mainley the fact my parents are falling apart, and i blame myself, i get angry when were arguing its not just an argument, i just cant control my anger, i smash things anything close to me, scream,shout, told my mum wish i was dead! i just didnt think what i was saying;i just dont no what to do, the other night me my mum and dad had a argument which went into a fight, and my mum thinks im metal, and has called my doctor i do want to make my mum happy cos i dont like seeing her like this, i really dont but i dontt understand, she thinks i need help, and i found it on the search history last night, 'metal health' & she noes i usto self harm alot, and i usto have counselling, and sometimes i self harm, scrach myself, rag my head.. it helps me,i just need someone to help me and tell me what i can do to put things right, everything is going wrong, my family, my friends, school, gcse's soon cant ruin them, i need my life sorted :(