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chey / Jan 15 2010 19.03
Hi

I dont know if im depressed,i hate everything about myself, everyone i know in my family or friends or anyone, ihae the way i look i hate the way iam i hate how impoor i hate how ill my dad i i hate how he drinks all the time which makes him even worse i hate that both my parents especially my mum smoke cuz there gonna die i hate how i am always moody how my dad isalways always moody how mymm is how one of my dogs is gonna proberly die cuz he is so fat(that is funny but also sad)ihate how bothmy aunts and other membes of family ihav died i hate how bitchypeople are now day i hate how everything cost so much i hate animal creality and animal testing, child abuse, bullyig i hate the world it sucks EVERYTHING SUCKS,how i get bored of things so easily, how i am selfish but then again i actualy am not.

I called te police last month and told them my dad hit me, he did but i hit him first actualy i lost it it was like everything built up and i just burst an then we had a fight and my mum and ihad to go,

I know this is a silly thing but it adds to the list, ihae mybedroom it is so smal and cant go with anyting ihate how i hav lst ll my close friends,

LIFE SUCKS

I hate that i am so dumb and that i am good at nohig i hate that i do not know what job i want when amolder so i can have a good life, i hate ,, well, i dont hate her ; ok this girl i know things she is beter than everyone else especially me and she rubs it in, i have tht my school doesnt let you wear make upbut the reason you dont wear it was because you dont feel comfortable in yor own skin.

Not that long ago i had a go at my teacher nd then burst out crying over 'me choking so i had to spit my water out and she told me off so i shouted at her and , the next lesson she started picking on me and i brought it back up so she went to take me to another class and i ent to see the head of year but she wouldnt let me bt i di not want to go to another class and i started crying i had loads of teaches trying tosrt it out but my school is rubbish they just go on each others sides and there is no counciling and if there was th councilor would proberly tell the other staff during breaks.

THERE IS LOADS MORE BUT IAM TIRED OF TYPING SORRY

I WILL BE BACK.

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Bethany360 / Jan 15 2010 19.03
Calm down and relax.

Judging by what you say you probaly are depressed BUT it is nothing to worry about as you can stop it. Everyone hates the way they look in someway or another but you just have to remember that this is who you are and feel confident. If you don't care no one else will. If you feel you are in danger of your dad hurting you you need to take action. You have said you have called the police but personally I think you should contact a child councellor as they will listen and understand how you are feeling much better. Lots of people smoke, my parents do. It doesn't mean they are going to die of a smoke related illness. I think you should deal with your own problems and then try to help them. Lots of dogs are fat but few are fat enough to die of it. Why don't you try to give your dog a diet or exercise if you are so worried about him/her. I'm sorry to hear that lots of your relatives have died and though they might never come back try to remember how they would have wanted you to feel. That really helps me. Then you say how life sucks. I agree, but we are stuck with it and therefore have to learn to live with it. As a true animal lover I hate animal testing etc but for now I have to learn to cope with it and not shout at everyone wearing makeup etc that has been tested on animals. I understand that your small bedroom would annoy you but surely it can't be as bad as other peoples in the world. Some of the worlds population are homeless and both you and I have our own bedroom. I don't fit in at school but I have had a 1-2-1 chat with a councellor and I am now doing a lot better-why don't you try it? Teachers aren't almighty so although its fun to make fun of them you have to remember that they don't know you well enough to help out.

If I was you I'd stay close to your mum, she must really care about you if she took you away from your dad. Good luck and if I knew you I would be happy to be your friend.

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