SomethingCrazy / Jan 19 2010 14.13

Hey Rachel :)

Could you talk to your friend and mention that what they are doing isn't helping you? Just have a quiet word and say that you are struggling with all the memories and thinking about your brother- if you want to talk about that in more detail then you can do here as well :)

As for sleeping at night- I really understand and empathize with you. I barely slept last night and this could also be due to fear of the horrible nightmares. I find that when I have my nightmares, writing down every single detail helps me get it sorted and a little easier to deal with- I can get it out of my mind. It seems like you are reliving what has happened in your sleep, do you have any professional help/anyone to talk to about this? Bottling things up never ever works and you really need to talk it out.

Try some sleep therapy type stuff like I listen to my ipod (high/low volume depending on my mood) and that usually sends me off to sleep a little more relaxed than lying there for hours with racing thoughts. Otherwise, have a hot drink/herbal tea before bed or just have scents of lavender close by. I think it is about making you as calm as possible before you drift off.

Take care xx