Well i was 5 years old, and my mum was murdered by my step father by pushing her off a cliff, called beachy head, and 6 weeks before that my uncle died in a motorbike accident, no one really understands it, my mates try and change the subject cause it's a bit akward, which i can understand but still.. i need to talk to some one. ive been thinking about suicide, but can't bring myself to it.

does anyone have ideas about my changing my thoughts to happier ones? Please comment.! :( x