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Hiya huns,
As a child I used to be sexually abused and was raped. Which obviously had an impact on my mental health. I was stupid and didn’t speak out, until I was much, much older, by which time the damage was done.
right... there was a lot more of that...
i dont know where it has all gone,
i will try and type it all again, but i realy will make it shorter.
basicaly there is this guy at church, and he makes me feel realy unconfortable, and always have done.
he makes all these comments, (that are meant to be complements like i aparently have a beautifull figure ect which is utter rubbish) but they make me realy unconfortable, and he keeps trying to give me a lift home, i accepted once, so that i didnt make a big fuss at church and will NEVER put my self in that position again, although he didnt do anything i had a huge panic attack the second i got out onto my drive.
this week i was on welcoming (handing out hymn books ect) which means i have to sit at the back, and he's a church warden so he does too, and he kept coming over and putting his arm round me, and touching the base of my back whilst talking to. is he just being over freindly? and am i over reacting? he realy scares me and makes me unconfortable, and people i dont know are starting to ask things like "is he your dad" and then when i say no they look realy confused. and there was a lady sat with us at the back cos she had a baby with her, and she kept giving him funny looks which makes me think its not normal, and out of order.
he's about 40, with a wife and kids, and is a teacher, which makes me think im over reacting, but im worried and i dont know what to do... he has never actualy done anything to me, just implyed stuff, so i cant realy say anything can i?
and i cant tell my mom and step dad, because they dont realy like me going to church anyway, and dont know about all the stuff that happened when i was a kid.
i cant seem to make this coherant again, i just sound paranoid. maybee i am. i dont know. but its realy upsetting me. what can i do? do you think im over reacting?
i will try and type the rest out later. but i realy need some advice from you guys.
x
if u don't feel comfrtable about it do u think u cld tell him how u feel? he might jut be being freindly but if it is making u feel uncomfortable then u need to tell him. i'm sure he will understand and probably didn't realise that by acting that way he was making u feel awkward.
if u think u might be being a bit paranoid then it would still be worth speaking to someone. is there someone at ur church u can speak to? maybe also talk about what happened when u were younger aswell if u haven't already told someone about that. having other ppl know might help because they can look after you and make you feel more welcome rather than awkward, if u know what i mean.
sorry if this doesn't make sense! hope it helps :)
good luck and take care
love emz xxxx
How old where you when you where sexually abused? who was doing that stuff to you?
i hope you have go over it not in a nasty was hope you life is not tottally rected
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