I was sexually and physically assolted by my mums boyfriend for 2 years (14-16). He made me touch and do stuff to him too and would beat me if i said no.I told no one. Then 2 weeks before the exams when i was off school ill he raped me. I had had enough of being treated this way and told a friend, who told school, who told the police, social workers and my mum.

Since then i have overdosed on sleeping pills (i was taking them becuase i had nightmares and flash backs) and i have attempted to slit my wrists twice (someone came in and stopped me before i could). I hear these voices in my head telling me that everything would be better if i wasnt here and that im not worth the fuss and to kill myslef. When im like this i cry and shake and hyperventilate and i cant stop it.

Now i am in a new school (collage) and i find it difficult to make freinds because i have trust problems (because i now know how fake people can be). I have been  missing lessons hiding in the toilets when im upset. I have also tried to kill myself in collage becuase i feel so alone and no one in collage understands what im going through or how i feel. I havnt made any freinds to talk to about it.

What should i do? Anyone got any coping methods or what to do when i feel suicidal???