i was sexually assaulted for 7 years by my grandads Best Mate so EVERY school holiday i'd go down to see them, his best matee was alwayss theree, people suspected things wasnt right, i denied the accusations that came out because i hated the thought of hurting my grandparents, it was happening right under there noses. i went anorexic as he said i had a really nice figure, i thought maybe that way he wouldnt like me. nothing changed. then My grandad died (U) i started self harmin, my mam &* dad found out &* said they wouldnt tell my gran as itd destroy her, so i decided too keep the sexual assault secret too myself because i thought that'd be worse. Mam &* dad split up soo early this year it all got too much so i opened up to my dad &* we reported it to the police, the case is still going through, however everyones gone back to normal, actin like none of this is happenin &* tellin me to get on with my life coz it wont happen again, But the point is im not over it one bit. i suffer from panik attacks << dad doesnt believe im havin them, extreme lows, flashbacks &* anger issuess. But have to pretend to everyone else that am happy. To be honest i dont think i can keep it up for much longer
