I was sexually abused by my foster sister who my mum and dad were looking after.it was about 6 years ago now but i cant get over it. i put on a smiling face everyday as being strong is the only option i have. i am broken and have been trying to hide the pain for years. i have started self harming again and lately i keep having nightmares. even when i think about it, it makes me feel sick,guilty and worthless. i told my 2 best friends but i honestly dont think it has helped.

and i miss my angel,my little sister.

my mum and dad fostered her for nearly 4 years. she meant everything to me. i will never forget the day she told me about her abuse before coming into care.she was only 5 when she told me, she had been through so much. and i dont think anyone undertands how hard it was for me to have to tell my mum about her abuse and pretened i didnt understand( i was only 9 or 10) when in reality i knew exactly what she had been through. my little sister was my everything,she still is. it hurts so much to have to say goodbye to the person you love the most. i would do anything to be able to hear her laugh again, see her little smile, hold her and just protect her.but i cant. in reality im just holding onto a dream that will never come true.

i think im finally giving up, i dont think i can do this anymore.