Hey im suffering from depression and i dont no if any one feels the same way as me ? i have thoughts of suicide also think about death i also have bad dreams and voices im my head telling me to hurt my self when i'm feeling low i turn to overdosing on tablets because i can not cope with the feelings i get i use to self harm but it didnt work for me , i do have help such as my parents and school also i go to (camhs ) .

School has been helping me some of the teachers there like my head year , assistand head year , assistant pricipal , child protection officer , school nurses have gave me support such as a reduced time table and time out card to get out of my lessons if i can not cope with it but there is a problem because i had a school meeting before i broke up with my mum and the people helping me what i menched above ,but the school has turned around and told me that they cant cope with me and i'm not safe to be at school because of overdosing and walking around during lessons on my own trying to find some one to go to because how i'm feeling im not even aloud to go to the toilet on my own because how i feel so every time i come out of a lesson loads of teachers get emailed . when i was in year 10 i missed alot of school then i went back to school and i was always out of lessons because i could not cope i was always found in the loo by my head year trying to take tablets but she took them of me then contacted camhs and teachers in the school to say what i had done . but the reason i'm worried about going back to school is because the school are saying 1. they cant cope with me , 2. they havent got the support staff , 3. im a danger to my self because of tablets , 4. they want let me see any one during lesson time because i missed out on lot of education in year 10 but then they say to me i can go to the medical centre but its stupid because they dont understand whats realli going on i always use to talk to my head year and the child protction officer . I dont no what to do because if i feel like i'm going to take a overdose i use to tell my head year so they could help me and try and stop me from doing it but if there not allowing me out of lessons what am i suppose to do if i have thoughts about taking pills because there has been loads of time its got to much and iv walked out of lessons then slt has been called becuase i have walked out . I'm really scard because if this happens during lesson time i dont have any one to tell please if you have any advice it will be very very much apprechated.

Thank you

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